Saturday, June 29, 2013

pain and suffering

Life is full of pain; it runs through our veins, it drips down into our souls like I thick, thick liquid of pain. People get hurt; some live with it and some can’t bare it anymore. This world this life, is just a series of pain everyone goes through. No one is ever happy and those who say they are lie, or their happiness fades as something worse replaces it. How can anyone be happy in a world of never ending desires?
            But then again maybe the pain and suffering people go through leads us to a death of happiness. And the little things that make us happy now, are just glimpses of what is to come.
Maybe that is why the world suffers, so that someday we can appreciate what is to come, so that we see that we didn’t go through it all for nothing. Or maybe that’s what we have to believe to keep moving forward.      
What if maybe we are all a phoenix bird, just waiting and going through the pain to get to our immortality; our rebirth.

The maybes of the world only to be answered in a grave.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

its been a while

    I haven’t posted in a while and if there are people out there reading this blog I’m sorry I haven’t posted sooner. So lately I have been struggling with some family issues. If you don’t know yet I have been disowned by my grandparents because I  support equal rights ( including gay rights) and my family disagrees with me and that’s ok I’m not asking them to change how they believe I accept the way they believe I just want them to do the same. but anyways lately every time they come around they act like nothing ever happened they act like they never told me I was going to burn in hell and it really hurts me, because they are turning the whole situation around on me and my sis (who also believes in equal rights) they keep saying things like " why don’t you come around anymore" "I’m going to hug you even if you don’t want me to" "you don’t love us". Like wtf? they are the ones that told us not to come around anymore, they told us "y'all will burn in hell!", my papaw even said " I’m not going to have the wrath of god on my hide because I support my grand-kids " so why are they acting like it’s our fault we don’t want be somewhere we aren't wanted? idk what to do anymore.